I still struggle with all these principles. The idea isn't that I am perfect, without flaws or don't deal with these issues. I deal with them too much. I want to control/help/fix the situation, and when that doesn't work, I get mad/revengeful, irritated, jaded with life and everyone in it. It is so defeating. And you know what? It doesn't work. It does work at get me riled up and angry, and full of feelings that I don't like in myself.
At least, with this program, I am trying. I am wanting to change. I want to be a more centered, grounded person that is not so wrapped up in drama and things that not only do I not control, but does not involve me. So this is my attempt at peace. And if I can just get through this hour without obsessing about things I can't control, that is a good hour.
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