I hate holidays...because of family dynamics....

I should be excited about Halloween. Part of me is excited. It's my baby's 1st Halloween. But I wish we could share it all as one big family, like I think of it. My one sis has custody of my other sis' kids. It's very hard. Because I know it's necessary because of the circumstances. But it's very upsetting because I miss the togetherness. And it takes a little bit of our joy away because of the family pain. And I want there to be joy. And I want it to be for everyone. I want everyone to be in a happy, spirited, loving, peaceful place in their lives, but that just isn't the case....